The difference stages of my gay life.
20s -
Exploring and struggling within myself about my gayness. Evasive and
secretive about letting people know about my gayness. use different
names on chat groups, etc. Sex wise, still exploring and curious.
30s
- Accepted myself as a gay man and started exploring how to make my sex
partner enjoy themselves. Very abrasive and direct with my wants and
needs, restless and angry. Sexually active and Into NSA fun and no
intention to settle down. Relationship wasn't really in my mind although
it was good to have. Met my 1st bf and realised that married man like
him sucks. Decided to stay single.
40s - Peak form and
had master the art of sex and sexually active and garnered a certain
level or expertise on bed and many repeat bottoms coming back for more.
Had a few relationship and started to be jaded after having too many
dramas. Mellowed somewhat. Started to really considered settling down
with the right partner.
50s - Found my partner and
decided to settle down and work on the relationship. Stop visiting clubs
and mixing more with our str8 friends and keeping a few close gay
friends for occasional outings and makan. Been together for 8 going on
9th years. Life is good and we did many things together even thought we
are many years apart in our age. Lots of give and take and compromises
and sacrifices to make if you want to see things work.
So yes, as we get older we do mellow down and focus on what we really want in life.
I would like to add that, we should live our life to the fullest and enjoy life as it come. No point regretting later that we never did what we wanted, because once its past, it's gone. Enjoy your process.
