When my mom bought a pressure cooker back in the 80s. I am fascinated by it shape and by it's function. Throw food into the cooker and close the lid. Place the cooker onto the stove and let it cook. When the food is about done, the valve will spin as steam comes out of it, creating loud hissing sound.
I think I might be bottling up lots of stuff of late and I can hear the loud hissing sound coming out from my thoughts. My mind is full and yet no particular thoughts come to my mind. I know some things needs to be done but yet I am procrastinating lots of stuff. Like clearing the back room to be rented out, cleaning the room, clearing my hard drives of it's files, etc. I am doing neither.
As I was flipping through my song list on my Omnia phone, the song by Garry Schyman - Praan; which I had downloaded, props up. Listening to it with my wireless Bluetooth headset, and although I do not understand a single word the Indian female was singing, I started to tear up as I suddenly got sentimental. I was wondering why my emotion was acts up on me. Was it the song, my hormones or was it because of too much things on my mind? Am I craking up?
I think my mood is swinging between nonchalant, happy, sentimental, abusive, bored, playful and bothered, not in any particular order. Something is wrong? Hope not. Physically I am fine. Hahaha. Maybe it can explain why some of the guests on the forum are getting flaks from me. I am highly combative when challenged.
I think I should whip myself back into shape. Hopefully the body is willing and the mind is not weak. Exercise should help me detoxify all nasty stuff and get me up and running.
11 February 2009
06 February 2009
Mingling with Friendly Straight People
One of my ex colleague messaged me to attend a CNY visiting on the 28th Jan at her friend's new house and since I've not seen her for some time, I said ok. She SMS me the address and I went.
Upon reaching the house, I noticed it was a white 3 stories tall bungalow which was just renovated. There were already many people busying themselves at the courtyard. Suddenly, my old schoolmate walked out of the house. He and his wife was shocked to see me at their doorstep and asked me how I know they have moved here. Obviously they both knew that they did not invite me and was totally shocked to see me.
I was surprise to see them too. I told them I was invited by my ex colleague, who happens to be their friend. The proud owner of the new house was my ex schoolmate about 30 years ago. Back then, we studied together and we had a bunch of friends who goes out together. After graduation we kept in touched and organized get together dinners for many many years until everyone was married, less me and another classmates. Then I started to drift away from the group as I do not want to answer the never ending questions of why I am still single. I have not seen my friends for years although we did try to kept in touch on and off.
It turns out that my classmate and his wife had spent the last 6 years in MLM and had recently been awarded the highest title. The house they just bought is huge with many rooms, a front yard and back porch. The furnitures and dining tables were oozing opulence and extravagence, so much so that I felt nauseous. Activities were happening around me; mahjong, card games, etc. But I chosed to stay with my ex colleague watching her making dumplings with a few ladies at the kitchen.
Some how, I did not do much interaction with my ex classmate and his wife. Somehow, I was cornered to attend my classmate's achievement day on 5th Feb. I was conflicted. I would like to see my ex classmate do well but I never really like MLM. I know you will eventually be sucked in by the group dynamics. Still I couldn't find myself to say no to my ex colleague and my now distance ex classmate.
I did however find the group happy and cheerful and everyone seems to be having a great time at the CNY gathering. Their cheerfulness somehow rubbed off on me. We had Yu-Sheng and I took a few bites for luck.
I left the gathering making many new friends which names I couldn't recall but much more relax and yes, I did enjoy myself and the food and I did managed to catch some of the CNY spirit.
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The day of recognition for my ex classmate quickly came. They had booked a big hall in one of the building in Shenton Way. It was a formal dress event but I went there wearing jeans, T-shirt and a jacket. My ex colleague did not informed me and I felt so under dress for the event. Well, embarassement aside, I kept thinking how I could squirm my way out of the event.
But I didn't and stayed on till the end. My ex colleague was the MC for the event. After videos presentation and many speeches later, my ex classmate and his wife took to the stage and spoke about how they arrived at where they are.
I am humbled by what my friend said during his speech. I know his success comes to him with lots of hard work and sweat. It is also nice to see that he and his wife are still so loving. I am happy for him. Many wants to duplicate his success and the whole hall was accolading his success. He and his wife are like celebrities being mobbed my adoring fans wanting to congratulate them. The whole event finised at about 10pm.
I was cajoled by my ex colleague into joining them for supper at Lau Pasat. I went even though I was hoping to make a disappearing act. The whole Lau Pasat was filled with laughters and noise of about 30 to 40 over guests spilling over from the event. There were guests from Vietnam, Malaysia and Taiwan who flew here to witness the event.
My ex classmate and his wife was mobbed once again by his guest and downlines asking for their autographs on the name card they pass out. After dinner, I made some excuse and left Lau Pasat after bidding my goodbyes.
On my way back home, I pondered on the whole event from the SMS message I received before CNY till the event which has just ended. Trying to see with a clear mind what I've witness and what am I going to do with my future. I have no answer. But I do know that, I did felt a tad bit awkward mingling with so many straight strangers at one go. Friendly and welcoming as they maybe, I can't help but wonder if I should be spending time with them because I know the usual Q&A about me being single will eventually crop up. When it happens, I hate to see myself putting up my defences and going through the usual blah blah bullshit.
I better don't think too far ahead. Shit. I've already agreed to meet my ex colleague next Tuesday to start my detox program. Shit. More mingling with straight nice people.
Side note; there was a cute guy who did catches my attention.
Upon reaching the house, I noticed it was a white 3 stories tall bungalow which was just renovated. There were already many people busying themselves at the courtyard. Suddenly, my old schoolmate walked out of the house. He and his wife was shocked to see me at their doorstep and asked me how I know they have moved here. Obviously they both knew that they did not invite me and was totally shocked to see me.
I was surprise to see them too. I told them I was invited by my ex colleague, who happens to be their friend. The proud owner of the new house was my ex schoolmate about 30 years ago. Back then, we studied together and we had a bunch of friends who goes out together. After graduation we kept in touched and organized get together dinners for many many years until everyone was married, less me and another classmates. Then I started to drift away from the group as I do not want to answer the never ending questions of why I am still single. I have not seen my friends for years although we did try to kept in touch on and off.
It turns out that my classmate and his wife had spent the last 6 years in MLM and had recently been awarded the highest title. The house they just bought is huge with many rooms, a front yard and back porch. The furnitures and dining tables were oozing opulence and extravagence, so much so that I felt nauseous. Activities were happening around me; mahjong, card games, etc. But I chosed to stay with my ex colleague watching her making dumplings with a few ladies at the kitchen.
Some how, I did not do much interaction with my ex classmate and his wife. Somehow, I was cornered to attend my classmate's achievement day on 5th Feb. I was conflicted. I would like to see my ex classmate do well but I never really like MLM. I know you will eventually be sucked in by the group dynamics. Still I couldn't find myself to say no to my ex colleague and my now distance ex classmate.
I did however find the group happy and cheerful and everyone seems to be having a great time at the CNY gathering. Their cheerfulness somehow rubbed off on me. We had Yu-Sheng and I took a few bites for luck.
I left the gathering making many new friends which names I couldn't recall but much more relax and yes, I did enjoy myself and the food and I did managed to catch some of the CNY spirit.
==================
The day of recognition for my ex classmate quickly came. They had booked a big hall in one of the building in Shenton Way. It was a formal dress event but I went there wearing jeans, T-shirt and a jacket. My ex colleague did not informed me and I felt so under dress for the event. Well, embarassement aside, I kept thinking how I could squirm my way out of the event.
But I didn't and stayed on till the end. My ex colleague was the MC for the event. After videos presentation and many speeches later, my ex classmate and his wife took to the stage and spoke about how they arrived at where they are.
I am humbled by what my friend said during his speech. I know his success comes to him with lots of hard work and sweat. It is also nice to see that he and his wife are still so loving. I am happy for him. Many wants to duplicate his success and the whole hall was accolading his success. He and his wife are like celebrities being mobbed my adoring fans wanting to congratulate them. The whole event finised at about 10pm.
I was cajoled by my ex colleague into joining them for supper at Lau Pasat. I went even though I was hoping to make a disappearing act. The whole Lau Pasat was filled with laughters and noise of about 30 to 40 over guests spilling over from the event. There were guests from Vietnam, Malaysia and Taiwan who flew here to witness the event.
My ex classmate and his wife was mobbed once again by his guest and downlines asking for their autographs on the name card they pass out. After dinner, I made some excuse and left Lau Pasat after bidding my goodbyes.
On my way back home, I pondered on the whole event from the SMS message I received before CNY till the event which has just ended. Trying to see with a clear mind what I've witness and what am I going to do with my future. I have no answer. But I do know that, I did felt a tad bit awkward mingling with so many straight strangers at one go. Friendly and welcoming as they maybe, I can't help but wonder if I should be spending time with them because I know the usual Q&A about me being single will eventually crop up. When it happens, I hate to see myself putting up my defences and going through the usual blah blah bullshit.
I better don't think too far ahead. Shit. I've already agreed to meet my ex colleague next Tuesday to start my detox program. Shit. More mingling with straight nice people.
Side note; there was a cute guy who did catches my attention.
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