New Senior @60

Just entered my 60 year a few days ago and am officially a lao uncle. Also months before, I celebrated my 10th year anniversary with my partner. I was torned between wanting a big celebration and yet another part of me wanted a simple dinner with friends and loved ones. Luckily my brother invited me to join him and his family for the celebrationand ended up having a family dinner at MBS.

As I separate my gay friends and family friends, I started celebrating very early and work my way till my big 60. Surprisingly, I got a message from my ex and met him for a very exclusive Japanese lunch. Chatted and found out that he recently broke off with his partner of 1 and half years. Encouraged my ex to open up his circle of friends and join groups like Out in Sg where they organise many well meaning programs and events for PLUs. I hope that he will recover from his last relationship and find someone he can be with. That said, I had also told him that it’s not easy for those above 40s to find love. Many gays brings with themselves lots of past baggages and sometime due to personality, etc. It’s hard for someone to change their ways or compromise their standards. But still, no harm trying getting to know more friends, for a start.

As one gets older, we must accept the fact that your contact list will start getting smaller. Just a few days ago, a friend just passed on as well as famous celebrities or people passing on, most recently as the Queen of England, Queen Elizeberth. May she rest in peace. Also my brother had a heart attack but was saved by the doctors when he went to the hospital in time, before he went unconscious. So life is fleeting. I really need to start exercising as I am becoming more and more like a bear instead of a Gachi Muchi.

Yesterday, was our 10th years together. We did have a small celebration after we came back from the pub and shared a piece of Tiramisu cake to mark our 10th Anniversary. He is fast asleep as he has a long day tomorrow and will be busy till the end of Sunday.

What can I say, time flies and we braved through 10 years together. My partner's work life is getting him very busy and I am glad to see that he is making his way up the ladders in his work life. 

As for me, I am just glad to be the person supporting him and his endeavors. He is heading towards the right direction and I am happy for him. 

I count my blessing that we are this far in our relationship, which can be rare for guys like myself approaching my 60 in about 2 month's time. He still finds me sexy and still gets turn on by me. 

He had turned from a lean guy to a little bear cub and I had turned from a stocky guy to a daddy bear. We both puts on much weight during the 2 year covid restriction. Well, life goes on.

Looking forward to the next 10 years together.

There was once, many years ago, I met this manly stocky guy in a sauna and from his mannerism, I can tell that he is a top. It wasn't long before our eyes met and we ended up in a room. This guy was pretty laid back and didn't do much so I took charged and gave him a foreplay he will never forget. Even till now, whenever we meet for coffee, he will bring up the time, I popped his cherry in the sauna.

You see, there are active top and there are passive top. Depending on my mood, I will sometimes play the active top and sometimes the passive top.  I am most active when I see someone my type and after a few minutes of foreplay like lick, nibbling on their sensitive areas, you can hear them moaning with every move you make. By then, they are already hooked on what you are doing on them. Those shy person will be very conscientious how loud they moan, while those unabashed one would moan out loud. I once had a Jap guy who covers his own mouth to prevent himself from moaning too loud. I thought that was really funny.

Anyway, back to the stocky guy, he was moaning and was wiggling from my incessant attack on his sensitive areas, from his neck to his back to his ass. to his thighs, etc. Slowly I took out the lube and apply to his hole. He sort of woke up from his senses and with his hand, tried to stop me from lubing his hole. He says he had not tried getting fucked and feels that my dick would be too big to go into his tight hole and he is worried that it will hurt. I tried to pacify him by telling him that I was just rubbing my dick outside of his hole and will not go in. (of course I lied). [Note: never believe a top when he says he just rubbing his dick outside your hole and not go in. It eventually will. hahaha]

With condom on, I lay on his back licking his neck and nibbling on his ears and I positioned my dick just outside his crack. He was moaning and breathing heavily, and it wasn't long when my dick slid slowly into his hole. On and off he will ask me if my dick had gone in, I lied and told him "no, it's just outside".  I know right, I am bad. hahaha,

It took me rather long time, but eventually I was already fully inside him. He did not feel any pain and he was still moaning from all my licking and nibbling on his sensitive neck and ears. By then, it was too late for him, he felt so high and he could not believed that I had already entered him. Without pulling out my dick, I maneuvered him into missionary. Then I started pumping in and out slowly. He was moaning like crazy and I was hitting his prostate. He told me that he felt like shitting and also he felt like peeing, I told him to relax and just enjoy the sensations. And he was already leaking precum all over his abs. not long, he shot his load without touching his cock and I came immediately after him due to the contraction of his ass.  Mind you, he was really tight and his ass was gripping my cock tightly.  I helped him wiped the cum on his body with the toilet paper and slowly pulls out my cum filled condom and tie a knot and threw it in the bin.

I then whispered into his ear, 你是我的人了! Haha, we laughed and he asked me how the hell did I fucked him without him realising it. I told him I had hypnotized him with my cock. He told me then that it was his first time and I told him that; "I know". He said it was also his first time autocum. I told him; “ I know too."

We exchanged numbers and left. We still meet occasionally for coffee but had moved past the sex part and became good friends.

So, to answer the question, is anal sex painful? Well, if done right by the right person, it should not be painful. 

Posted February 17 in Blowing Wind forum

 

59 years young

 In early August, my partner and I celebrated our 9th anniversary. And this month, we celebrated our birthdays one after another. I considered myself to be lucky as some of my friends are still single. I am blessed to have a partner whom have been with me for the past 9 years.

As one gets older, many things will change, things which I was very particular about, does not matter much nowadays. One no longer feels the need to get angry over mundane unimportant stuff. What used to be nuisance don't agitate me any more.Am I getting mellow? Perhaps.

During my recent birthday, I find it a chore replying to phone and social media messages; which was flooded with well wishing messages. But still glad that friends never fails to wish me well. I really enjoyed the quite time with my partner watching TV together or just dinner on our beds, or lunch / dinner outside by ourselves or with friends. And due to the COVID situation; one moment it's 2 pax, one moment it's 5 pax, then back to 2 pax. So dining out can be a hassle, besides being dangerous, as one might get infected.

I no longer prefer to join in big groups but prefers the companies of good friends, catching up with them taking lunch or dinner and enjoying each other's company. 

I enjoyed hearing the sound of  my partner sleeping / snoring / breathing loudly next to me. My partner is working hard everyday and he loves what he is doing. Something he will share his joy or unhappiness at work and I will just listen and give him some of my views. That's how we communicate. He is also going through some tough challenges as his mom is fighting her final stage of cancer. And the only thing he can do is to get mentally prepared beside getting things ready for her after her passing. 

My mom passed away due to cancer, 3 years ago and on the day of her passing, was the day I had to fly overseas for work. I did get to say my brief goodbye before rushing off to the airport but did not have the grieving send off. When I came back 1 month later, things had gone back to norm and my family members had began to cope with the lost of my mom. As for me, there was this blank in my memories of her passing and she no longer appear in my parent's house when I visit. Yet, I did not regret the decision of not staying back for her funeral as it was necessary for me to leave for work with I had committed. Still, somehow, I can only accept that that's how life had been per-arranged by fate.Such is life.

I am so looking forward to my 60th birthday next year but I know that it will be filled with lots of challenges because of the recent rise in COVID cases. We will never know if next year will be a good or bad year but just count the blessings and takes things in stride and manage the challenges as it comes. 

Stay safe!

 

The difference stages of my gay life.

20s - Exploring and struggling within myself about my gayness. Evasive and secretive about letting people know about my gayness. use different names on chat groups, etc.  Sex wise, still exploring and curious.

30s - Accepted myself as a gay man and started exploring how to make my sex partner enjoy themselves. Very abrasive and direct with my wants and needs, restless and angry. Sexually active and Into NSA fun and no intention to settle down. Relationship wasn't really in my mind although it was good to have. Met my 1st bf and realised that married man like him sucks. Decided to stay single.

40s - Peak form and had master the art of sex and sexually active and garnered a certain level or expertise on bed and many repeat bottoms coming back for more. Had a few relationship and started to be jaded after having too many dramas. Mellowed somewhat.  Started to really considered settling down with the right partner.

50s - Found my partner and decided to settle down and work on the relationship. Stop visiting clubs and mixing more with our str8 friends and keeping a few close gay friends for occasional outings and makan. Been together for 8 going on 9th years.  Life is good and we did many things together even thought we are many years apart in our age.  Lots of give and take and compromises and sacrifices to make if you want to see things work.

So yes, as we get older we do mellow down and focus on what we really want in life.

I would like to add that, we should live our life to the fullest and enjoy life as it come. No point regretting later that we never did what we wanted, because once its past, it's gone. Enjoy your process.

Year of 2020 - A year of great change and danger!

How time flies, we have been together for the last 8 years since April 2012. We brave through times when I was off for work for months oversea and the current COVID-19 together.  

Life is as per normal as he goes to work and come back home after work and we have out dinner together, either he cooks or we go out for dinner. 

Hope the situation will get better and that COVID-19 will be a gone soon. 

For those reading, Stay healthy and stay safe. 

Is age a problem in a relationship?

Someone text me to tell me that he is dating someone 15years older than him and asked me if age is a problem?

For someone who had been with many guys whom are younger than me. I don't see it as much of a problem. Love is love, you love someone for who they are, it just so happens that their age is younger or older than you. The love you have between each other is not going to diminish or increase just because he is older or younger than you are.

Having said that, the next thing is how compatible are both of you? Do you click with each other? Do you have common interest? Do you talk it out if you have disagreements?

My young bf is 26year younger than me and we have been together for the past 6 to 7 years and still going strong.

In the beginning, my younger bf were conscientious when introducing friends around his age to me. He is worried of what others might say or ask. That I can understand, so sometimes I will join him with his friends and sometimes I don't, just so that I don't make it difficult for him. But over the few years we have been together, his friends starts to get use to seeing me around. He eventually came out to his very close friends about our relationship and his straight friends though surprised but accepted him for who he is.

Sometimes, young people are very conscious about their image and social standings. For me, I don't bother with how others view me. I live the life I want and I don't owe anyone a living and neither do they, so I am not at all bothered by how people sees me, as I don't live my life on other's expectations. I hope that young people understand this too. Don't live your life on what others expect of you. Live your life how you want as long as you don't hurt or harm people. Always choose to live a happy life.

So, is age a problem in a relationship? I can only says that, if you think it's a problem then you have a problem, but if you don't think it's a problem then it's hardly a problem. It's between you and the person you love, whatever problem you might have, I am sure you will find a solution for it.

Gay Relationships

It's 2016. Our relationship is coming to 4 years. My good friend in Taiwan is celebrating his 11th years with his bf. It's rare for gay couples to have relationship that long but it does happen.

For my friend who is in his 11th years, I must say, the Taiwanese are the most open minded in thinking than many Singaporeans, including myself. I met my Taiwanese friends in Bangkok back in 2000 while I was working there and he was there nursing a heartache as he had just broken off a 4 year relationship.

We did not meet again until 2003 when I went Bangkok with my then ex. We met by chance while I was going up to take the train at Saladang, while he was walking down. My ex noticed that he was staring at me and told me and I took a glance and thought he looked familiar but can't recall his name. I searched my phone and called him and he answered that he is now in Bangkok and we just pass each other. I invited him to join us and we enjoyed our little get away holiday.

Our friendship bonded during that trip and we became close friends after that. I would visit him in Taipei the next year with my ex and he introduced his then new boy friend to us. Back in 2004, he was only dating this guy and he had said they would try out the relationship and now, fast forward today, they are celebrating their 11th Anniversary.

My Taiwanese friend had, during his 11 year relationship been in 2 multiple partners relationship. One was with another couple about 4 years ago. Although that relationship lasted about a year plus. they are still friends. They broke off because one of the other couple was a tad too childish and selfish.

The last time I met my Taiwanese friend was a few months ago and also in Bangkok with my current bf and he brought along another guy whom had agreed to be the 3rd person in his current relationship with the agreement from my friend's boyfriend. We had a great time together enjoying good food, massages, and shopping.

We can tell that the new bf really love my friend from all the little action he did and I am really happy for my friend to find someone like him. My friend is not a hunk but he is certainly the most intelligent, charming and talented person one can have as a friend. I am always amaze by the fact that he is able to manage a relationship with multiple partners and that he is able to talk and make sense whenever there is any dispute or argument and he is the best person I would go to to get answers for relationship issues.

Its really not easy to be in a relationship for gay couple, and its even harder to have a relationship that can last more than 11 year. The difficulty level multiplies when you have a 3 or 4 person relationship. It's not impossible but possible and my Taiwanese friend is proof that it is possible. Kudos to him.

As for me, I am very happy to be with my current bf of about 4 years although we might have a 26 year age gap. So, basically, nothing is really impossible for a relationship to work, its just whether you want to make it work or not.

It's 2015 and how time flies.

Have not been posting as I have been busy with work over the past few years, though not terribly busy, but busy none the less.

New Year, Chinese New Year came and went and its Chap Goh Meh (15th and last day of  the Chinese New Year).  To me Chinese New Year is the same every year, I am not a very festive person so I usually don't organise anything in my house. But I was invited to attend a few parties to celebrate the Chinese New Year.

Well, 2014 was a good year where I get to travel and does some great work overseas. It had never dawned upon me that my work would take me overseas. But by some stroke of luck, I was asked to work oversea twice. So 2014 was actually a great year for me with lots of opportunities and work. Thus it is something to be thankful for.

What was good had also it's bad. My health was slightly affected last year after being lazy and inactive.  My 2 oversea work trip although was good opportunity but it came with a price; A sprain back and some breathing problem, luckily it was very minor and I recovered from it, fortunately, since I had purchase travel insurance, I was able to claim for both the medical treatments.

Last year was also a year where I traveled to Bangkok, Hong Kong for holidays with my boy. Come April and it would be our third year together. How time really flies.  Everything with us is rather routine and we each busy with our own work but the best part of it was that he has been staying with me for the past 1 year plus.

I am getting use to him sleeping next to me and hearing him breath and sometimes snores. So when I travel or when he is not around, I sort of not use to sleeping alone without him next to me.

Life is such, when you are so used to being alone, you need to get use to people sleeping next to you, but if you are attached for some time, you may not get use to not having someone sleeping next you.

I can still hear his breathing next to me as I am typing. :)

Cherish what you have, when you have.

Good nite.

Someone Whom You've Not Met Is In Love With You For 7 Years

I'm stumped by the fact that a Taiwanese guy whom I've not met in person is in love with me for 7 years. I found that out only today after linking up with him just yesterday after a few years absent. He had sent me a message and I added him to my social network app.

Years ago, he had sent me a message on my other social network app online and we chatted briefly on MSN, he was 19 then and I thought he was a tad too young. Nonetheless, we maintained an on and off chat and I shared with him advises and listened to him on his problems. It didn't take long for him to profess his love for me, which I kindly turned down. The reason I told him that we are too far apart and that he is still young and should concentrate on his studies. I also consciously decided to avoid him and cut down our conversation as I realised that he is serious about his love for me. Eventually, we did not chat online and things dwindled down.

Little that I know that after so many years, he still feels the same for me. I thought he would had found someone else and move on, but no. I told him the same reasons I told him years ago and that I'll feel bad if he had wasted all this time waiting for something that may not happened, but he is adamant. Nothing I can say can't change his mind.

He even told me that he had not had sex with anyone and that he was waiting for me and looking forward to meet me in the future. I was skeptical and asked him how he deals with his urges and he says for the past years, he used the pics I gave him to Jo. (OMG, unbelievable)

I asked him how he would feels if someone had said the same things he said to me, to him? I told him that I felt pressurised from what he said and also that the thought that someone had love me for 7 years without even meeting is :
1. Very Romantic
2. Very Creepy

Anyway, I am taking everything with a pinch of salt and see how things progresses. He is a nice kid and I had spoken with him over the phone and he comes across as genuine as he can be and I still the same vibes I get from him after all these years. 

To an extreme, I even told him that I am not the boyfriend material as I am too much of a playboy and his answer to me is that he don't mind who I am and only want me to allow him to love me. (His msg :"我不管你多不專一, 我只要你讓我愛你就好")

Still the thought that such devotion for a skeptical person like me stumped me. I am never a person who are at a lost for words but I sure am now. So in the mean time, I just take it in and smile. 


Posted 24 April 2012 - 06:42 PM on BW  http://www.blowingwind.org/forum/index.php?showtopic=31629

The Life Of A Kept Boy @ 22

Life as a kept boy is never all rosy and nice. I was a kept boy at age 22. He was a successful boss with glamorous lifestyle, double my age. I met him while working in town and his company was next to my ex company. To my family, he was my godfather. I was young, confused about my sexuality and his lifestyle was glamorous and exciting. I wasn't in the gay circle until I met him. I stayed at his place and we are seen everywhere together and he pays for everything whenever we are out. Sex was great, he was the older bottom and I the younger top. It was him and only him that I did the "helicopter".

It was about a year into our "relationship" that I got a call from one of his fuck buddy; It was another young guy. It was then that I realised that he had been doing things behind my back. That guy on the phone even ask me if I want to have sex with him, which I refused. I was young, naive and I just knew that he was very nice to me and I didn't even thought that I was in a "relationship" with him, because we never talked about such thing. I was with him because he was nice to me. I thought I was bi then, Sounds familiar rite?

Things when downhill from thereon and I realised that he became a different person whenever he was drunk. One of the evening, during one of our verbal fights and his drunken stupor, he smashed my head with a glass ashtray and I fainted. It was then I realised that I can't be with such a person. I ran out of the house and he chased after me. The neighbours called the police and because of not to caused any problem, I followed him back. I was really traumatised and was fearful of my life because I was not in control of my own life. I finally found an excuse to move back with my parent by saying I was going for further studies.

He called me up to talk and I told him to meet me in a crowded place to prevent him from getting violent. During our talk, he threaten to out me to my parents. At that moment, I can only tell him that I've told my parents that he is gay and that he had abused me. He was shocked and surprised that I had told my parents and I told him that if he were to come to my place to find trouble with me, we will call the police. Of course, I lied. After that incident, I dropped out of the scene and avoided any places that he might go.

So, for those who thinks that life as a kept boy is all fun and roses, I would tell you from personal experience that it's not. It was good while it lasted but you have no control of your life and actions. You lose your self dignity and people will still remember you were someone's kept boy even after many years had passed.

I've never told anyone about this pass of mine and I struggled whether to post this in BW, but I thought I should share my past in the hope that those young and naive guys don't follow my footstep and end up somewhere you don't want to.

You have many choices to choose and you decide the life you live. So, be wise and grounded but most importantly be true to yourself and be happy. 

Posted 30 April 2012 - 04:54 PM on BW  http://www.blowingwind.org/forum/index.php?showtopic=31753&p=408987

Life At 51

I recently celebrated my 51st birthday and I chose not to have a big celebration, just a simple dinner with my boy, (we just celebrated our 1st year together) and 2 of my close friends.

What does a 51yo uncle need? Nothing. I don't need anything more because I already have everything.  Not kidding, I already have it all. 

I may not be the riches person to be able to buy everything, but I am enrich with experiences and there is nothing else in the world I would need because I am already happy and contented with what I already have. 

I have a comfortable home,
I have good job,
I have good friends,
I have love from my family
I have love from my boyfriend
I have good health, so far so good, nothing major issues.


Contentment is the key to happiness.

Mottos I Live By

A young guy wrote to me after reading my blog. He asked me "How has gay life been for me and what advice can I give to a 25yo boy like him?"

Here is my reply to him.

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Everyone will have a path that will be different, regardless str8 or gay.

Here are some food for thoughts :-

1. Live A Life of No Regrets - I know it's not easy when you are faced with many choices, but a life with no regrets is when you live it for yourself and not for others and not based on what others say.

Whatever choices we make in life there will be consequences. The good consequences will enrich us and help us grow, the bad consequences may destroy us and also hurt others. Choose your choices wisely. Don't do things that you may regret for the rest of your life.

2. Do Good Deeds - Do good and help people when you can because the person you helped might return your help when you need it the most one day. But not do good and expect something out of it. Just do good without expectations and without wanting any returns and not because u hv to but because you want to.

3. Open Your Mind - We sometimes have a certain way of doing things and sometimes we do not want change to come and upset our comfortable life.  Do try to open your mind to new things and new ideas, etc. Only when we free our mind will we be able to experience new things and grow from the experiences.

4. Open Your Heart - Be real and genuine to people around you, treat people with respect and don't take people for granted. When you open up your heart to people, those who can see your good qualities and don't mind your bad qualities are those people you can call them friends. Even when you have been played out by your so-called friends, dun be mad at them, because it is their loss not your loss.

5. Protect yourself - Do no harm to others, but you must also learn to protect yourself. Be it emotionally or physically. Learn from your failures as it will help you to be stronger. Protect yourself implies that you must know when to put up your guard and when to let it down and these are things which will come from good and bad experiences learned.

6. Look Inwards - Happy or sad it's just a state of mind. No one other than yourself can get yourself out of feeling down or bad. All it takes is for you to change your mindset. You will succeed in affecting change only when you want it bad enough.

7. Think Positively - Not everyday can be a happy day. So when things gets you down, don't take it out on others or on yourself. Let it go. Because tomorrow will be another day. Yesterday has gone. Your positivity will attract positive things.

8. Manage Your Expectations - When you do something, always manage your expectations. If good things happen, its because of the effort you put in. Even if good things didn't happen, it's ok too. Just do better next time. The bigger the expectation, the greater the disappointment. Sometimes, its not the end result but the process that helps you to grow.

9. Manage your Emotions - We all have feelings, things which happened can affect us, but if you look at it from different perspectives, you will be surprised how it can help you see things in a different light and maybe even understand things better.

10. Learn from Experience - The more things we experience, the better we are when we do it the next time round and the wiser we will become with each experience learned.

11. Embrace Challenges - Don't run away from it or avoid it, embrace it. Sometimes, these challenges are there so that we can learn about our strengths and weaknesses. Once we have overcome the challenges, we can conquer our weaknesses. Even if we fail, it means we need to look at our weaknesses and put in more effort to be better next time round.

12. What Defines You - You are defined by who you are as a person and not by material things or your physical outlook.  People like you because of your personality, character and all those internal traits, not your physical appearance nor your financial status. But that does not mean you neglect your external appearance, although they are of secondary importance.

13. Treat Yourself Well - Treat others good but also treat yourself better. I am not asking you to be selfish or self centered.  What I am saying is don't be too hard on yourself when we fail sometimes, because failure is part and parcel of life. You owe it to yourself to treat yourself better and pick yourself up when you are down and move on from the failure.

14. Be Thankful and Count Your Blessing - Life has lots of ups and downs, there will be people who will cross paths which will change your life and or unpleasant things happened, but it helped you to grow to be a better person or affect you enough to be stronger and wiser. Always be thankful to those who helped you grow and always count your blessings that you are safe and healthy. 

Counting Your Blessing In Life

It has been almost close to 10 month with my boy.  We are still going strong and thing are looking good that we will be celebrating our 1st anniversary together come August. 

I must really be a luck guy to be blessed and I am counting my blessing. I am not the most romantic guy, but he gets the little things I do and appreciate me for that. That, I am thankful.

I am not the type that will say mushy stuff or text mushy stuff but I show him that I care in making sure that things that needs to be taken care of or done will be taken care of and done. No need for sweet words just to sound sweet.

I had told him that I am blessed and he gets what I mean and he tells me that he felt safe and secure when he is with me.  Although in the beginning, he did come off as a tag too sticky, he had understand and knows that I do need my space and will leave me to do my things when I have to.

What more can I asked for? None. I am happy and contented and I count my blessings that I am blessed and life is great!

Hitting The Big Five O

I had just passed my 50th birthday few days ago and I can say that life have been good to me. Work life have been good and most importantly, love life is just as good. This 50 year old uncle is still able to attract guys half my age. Am I lucky or what? He he he.

We met on Growlr. It was he who text me. I rarely meet up with guys from gay apps. I prefers to go sauna as it would be more direct. If I like someone in the sauna, just pull them into the room and fuck the shit out of them and then part ways. Less complicated.

After I ended my fourth relationship three years ago, I am just so jaded to get into another.  That said, I do miss having someone around and would occasionally long for some good company, but I have no intention to stat a relationship or lead people on. So when I meet people up, I would prefer that its No String Attached (NSA) fun and are weary with people who are looking for more than just fun.

When I meet up with people from gay apps, I usually never have any expectations, because you never know how truthful these people are with their pics and stats. So I would arrange to meet for coffee first to see if we are each others' type. If we like what we see, we can proceed further, but if we don't like what we see, we can always tell each other that we can't proceed further.

We met and he was exactly who he is on the apps. I am a sucker for young sunshine guys and he is exactly the type I like. So after our drink, I asked him to follow me home. He later that he told me that when I asked him to go back with me, he had a hard on all the throughout journey from the interchange to my place. Hehehe, young guys are so full of energy.

Although he was from the country up north, he looks fit even though he did not go through NS. He did make an effort to workout in the gym. When I peel off his shirt I can see that he was rather hairy. I hardly see lean young guys that are hairy. It is rare. I am loving it! He has a nice set of trails running from his abs to his groin. It is such a turn on for me. I am a sucker for guy with nice butt and most importantly I am super turn on by guys with fine hair on their butts. He has the nicest butt with the nicest fine hair on it. Many Japs has hairy legs and butts but it is rare to find that on Chinese guys. The last person that had nice hairy butt was my 2nd ex-bf; and now, him. I was really turned on, so I did my best to perform in bed and he did not disappoint me either, we were very compatible. I had a great time and from the looks on his face, he too. :)

After sex, he went on to talk about his past. I listen in earnest. I realised how smart and mature he is for someone his age, he is just 23. He stayed over that nite and chatted till the wee hours. It's always nice to share my bed with another warm body, more so when he is someone I like.  He hugged me to sleep the whole night so I didn't really sleep as I am still getting use to having someone sleeping next to me. But I am not complaining and are enjoying the extra company.

We had sex again in the morning, but it was purely driven by the attraction we had for each other. We had to make it a quickie as he had to get to work. After he left, I realised that he had left his watch behind.

After that night, he keeps texting me saying that he misses me. I am not a guy who likes to spend time texting as I feel it is a waste of time. I rather call and chat and relate a message, but somehow, young guys love to text. At one stage, I had to ask him to stop the to and fro texting. Oh well, I just need to learn to accept that this is part and parcel of being with a younger guy and this is how they communicate nowadays.

I wasn't expecting much and didn't want to just jump into anything in haste, but somehow this cute guy is wasting no time in wanting to meet me and letting me know he misses me. So I arranged for dinner the next week after we first met. I also took the opportunity to return his watch to him. That night, he stayed over at my place again and over the next few weeks, our meetings became more frequent.

Since he started work in Sg just over a year, he says that he does not have many friends and prefer to spend most of his time with me. I told him that I wanted him to put more focus on his career since as he is new on the job. I also told him that work has to be his priorities and not a relationship. Without work, he can't even stay in Sg.

It's has been a month plus since then and I am growing fond of him and he is still crazy about me. He just love to hug, kiss, cuddle and of course have sex with me. I am glad that I am still able to match this young guy's energy level in bed, but for sure, his recovery is much faster than me and can get hard really fast even after we just had sex. He love to see my expression when I am enjoying myself with him and I love to hear and see his expression when I make wild passionate love to him.

I am not rushing and are taking my time and see how things would go after the "honeymoon" period is over, but in the mean time, I am a lucky man and life have been good to me.  I just have to count my blessing with every passing day.

He is sleeping next to me as I am typing out this...:)

Catching up with an old friend

How do you feel when you can tell your school day crush that he was your childhood crush? Haha. I did. I met up with my long lost schoolmate after like 30+ years recently.

He was my primary school classmate. To me, he was the best looking guy in class. During that time, I didn't know I had a crush on him until we left our school to move on to secondary. We went to different school, but as my secondary school was near his home, I frequent his home often just to see him. I even stayed on for dinner with his family at times. I didn't know I had a crush on him until much later and I am still not sure why I keep wanting to see him back then.

Fast forward, present day. He didn't change much. His signature hairstyle, boy-next-door look and smile are still what I remembered, except much older. He is straight by the way and married.

We had a great time catching up with each other and from our conversation, I found him to be very open and non-judgmental. Somewhere during our conversation, he told me that one of his friend from his uni intro his partner to him and I took the opportunity and came out to him.

I am not usually the type who would just come out to people, but I am glad I did as I just want to be honest with him, as he me. We talked quite a fair bit about our personal lives and stuff and incidents and people of yesteryear.

I am sure we will keep in touch and hopeful build upon our friendship as we had lost touch for so many years.

My Taiwan Trip 2011

Met this young guy the next morning I arrived in Taipei. He msg me on Jack'd and we met and we fucked. Decided to give him my underwear since I thought his underwear were really ugly. After that we did not managed to meet and I thought that was it.

It wasn't until my trip was about to come to an end that I chatted with him again. So I decided to spent my last nite with him and fly off the next evening.

I met him at Xi Men Ding and he was still as cute as the first day I saw him. Instead of bringing me to his place, he lead me to a boutique hotel nearby. The small room had everything one need for a good time and even a small tub. We both took a bath in the small tub. Passion took over and we kissed and kissed and made passionate love. Even though I was having sex almost everyday, I was really turned on my the hot young bod before me and I was really into the session. After the hot passion, we lay in bed chatting and more kissing. That nite, we hug as we slept.

The next morning, I woke up with a raging hard on and more sex ensured. Then we head for breakfast. After breakfast we rested a bit and I gave him my Calvin Klein underwear as a gift to remember our times together. We checked out of the hotel and went for lunch before heading to his house nearby to leave my backpack.

We went to watch a critically acclaimed Taiwanese movie called "You are the apple of my eyes"(那些年, 我們一起追過的女孩). during the show, we hold hands and at times, we kissed. After the show, we went back to get my backpack. During those time, we stole kisses when we think no one was watching, hold hands, etc. I felt like a school boy again going out on a date.

Well, all good things have to come to an end and I had to bid farewell to my cute Taiwanese boy. As the bus drove off from the bus terminal, I felt a void developed in my heart. I can feel that he really liked me and I too had never felt mushy inside for a long time.

He text me saying he like me and I replied. "Thanks for liking me" (謝謝你喜歡我) (As in the movie we watched).

As I was fumbling through my backpack looking for my spare phone battery, I found a note from the boy saying he had enjoyed the day with him and he left me a gift; the blue shorts he wore during our time together. I did mentioned that I wanted to get a similar shorts but we never found the time to shop for one. I was touched. The short fits me too.

I've been to Taiwan many times and I can say, I usually treat such trip as a fuck and forget, but somehow, this boy makes it hard for me to forget. Shit, am I really getting old and mushy.

The plane landed in Sg but the memories still lingers on of the time I spent with this boy.

1st Post of 2011

Hadn't had the mood to blog these days. Thanks to those whom had sent me greetings for my 49th Birthday, which had passed recently.

Ya, approaching the big 50 next year. Surprisingly, I felt much better and healthier. Must be the placenta and propolis supplements that I've been taking. Hmm, have never been that health conscious before, it's good to take care of oneself as one ages and it helps when one feels better.

Late 2010 and 2011 is a year of new experiences. Been trying lots of stuff which I had never had the nerve to try. But what the hack, I am not getting younger and there is no harm experiencing it. I can only say, there are no regrets and I am enjoying it to the max.

Relationship wise, nothing fruitful yet. maybe I wasn't even trying hard enough. Sex was always great. Been dabbing my hands in some SM stuff, interestingly, I was rather turn-on, maybe because it was new but the thought of dominating someone totally and owning them sounds exciting. (evil grin) Hehehe.

The last few week was crazy, been having sex non-stop just after my birthday right up till yesterday. About one and a half week of non-stop fun. Whoa, I've never been so sexed up before. Hahaha. Luckily, it ended on a high note. The last bottom I had gave me such a nice blowjob and I fucked him up so good the he soiled my bedding. Well, shit happens but I am not angry with him. It was a really good session.

Well, life's been good and I am working my butt out in losing weight and getting bigger chest and back.

Here's toward the Big 50.

Year of Change

I have not been posting since Jan this year. Maybe because I was tired, maybe I was jaded, maybe I was depressed. But its all gone now. I am back.

When you hit rock bottom, the only way to go is up.

Like I've mentioned in my earlier post, things hasn't been smooth last year. But this year, it's different.

New life - Being single again.
New career - Dabbling my hands into the entertainment industry. (Sorry, will be keeping the career a secret)
New challenges - Losing weight. Had been quite successful so far, as I am still in the process. Was 86kg and currently lost a few kgs to 84. Looking at 78kg. Have been hitting the gym and watching my diet. Should be able to see more weight lost in Oct.

Sex have been great too. I feel stronger, last longer and been able to fuck harder and cum more. Must have been the improved health as well as the mental well being. Love to hear my partner make lots of noise in my ears asking me to fuck them hard. Have been waking up with terrible hard on of late.

Anyway, things seems to have picked up. Busying myself with work, I have not spent much time with my old friends, but yet, due to my new career, I am making new friends, but fortunately or unfortunately, they are str8, or at least most of them are. I even went on a movie date with a girl half my age. Am I turning str8 or what? Or maybe I am turning Bi. Hahaha. I dun know.

Except for the regular sex with men, most of my time had been busy with making money. Lots of opportunities had opened up for me and lots of deals coming in. I hope this run of luck will continue. I can't complain now.

Well, my 48th birthday is approaching and I will be working on my birthday. Which is rare, as I usually prefers to take a day off during my birthday. But then, I can't say no to the money coming my way, can I?

With no boyfriend to hold me back and no commitments to tie me down, I think work is the best solution for a birthday. Anyway, it's something I love to do as I am building my career in entertainment.

2010 A Year of Change

Had been doing some reflection before the year ended. Am looking forward to making some changes in my life. Things haven't been smooth in 2009, especially so in Nov. Am glad that I had friends who were there when I needed to help me get over some hurdles. Life goes on and nothing beats starting over in a new year.