Chinese New Year to me is a non-event. To me, CNY is just like any other holidays except longer. For the last few years, I just can't find the mood to celebrate it. Does it have anything to do with my granny's passing about 4 yrs ago? I don't know? Somehow, I just can't find back the spirit. It was worst; the years following her passing. Whenever I goes back to my parents' place, I will feel guilty and I dreaded that kind of feeling. Don't ask me why I feel guilty, I just do. Could it be because my sub-consciou telling me that I have not been a good grandson/son? I don't know.
Every year during CNY eve, all my sibilings, nephews & nices will gather at my parent's place for reunion dinner. It is a yearly event. My parents will cooked lots for food for the reunion. Mom will be pushing herself to prepare food for everybody. Dad will help out somewhat but mom won't get to rest till the 4th day of CNY.
Before the end of dinner, I would have developed a headache. My head would throb gradualy until it is unbearable. It has been so for the past few years. By then, I would have wanted the dinner to end and I quickly get back home to recover or I will have to swallow pain killers and hope that the pain goes away soon. Luckily, this year it wasn't that bad. The pain was very mild and I don't have to take any pain killers.
First day of CNY is as per the past many years. My sworn bro will bring his wife and kid for lunch and later I would go visiting my 2 uncles; one on dad's side and one on mom's side, with my bros and sis and their family. As usual, I would have collected all the ang pow from all my relatives; my parents, my bro, my 3 uncles and my aunt. It has been our tradition since I was a kid and had never change. Every year for the past many years since we were kids till we are grown ups, it has always been so. Anyway, it is also the only time I get to see my uncles and aunts. This year is no exception. It is a yearly routine.
CNY holidays came and went. Tomorrow is the 3rd day of CNY and it is also granny's death anniversay. As usual, we will be visiting the temple where my grandparent and uncles' ashes are kept. My parents had also bought and reserved "a place" at the temple for themselves when their time comes.
I wonder should I also reserve myself a place at the temple or should I just tell them to scattered my ashes in the sea when my time comes? Anyway, I don't think I want to think much about that at the moment. Life goes on even when your love one has pass on and the only thing that are left behind are just memories or photographs of them frozen in time.
28 January 2009
06 January 2009
Admirers from BW
Been getting lots of PMs and emails from BW lately. Some wants to have sex with me and some wants to be friend with me. Most says that they have been following my posting for some time and have grown curious about who I am.
I am not a Christian nor a religious person, I got the above quote from watching one of the episode of "Eli Stone" (Season 02 Ep 09).
I have responded with replies to some members and ignored some. It is interesting that my internet persona have it's admirers. I am flattered by the attention but then, it is not something I was expecting when I sign up as a mod.
Well, looking forward, I hope to meet and make more new friends and hopefully contribute more to the PLU community or the society at large.
In Matthew 16:"I know who I am, with your reaction, all of you will tell me who you are."
Peter ask Jesus who he is, and Jesus respond "Who do you say I am; Who are you?"
I am not a Christian nor a religious person, I got the above quote from watching one of the episode of "Eli Stone" (Season 02 Ep 09).
I have responded with replies to some members and ignored some. It is interesting that my internet persona have it's admirers. I am flattered by the attention but then, it is not something I was expecting when I sign up as a mod.
Well, looking forward, I hope to meet and make more new friends and hopefully contribute more to the PLU community or the society at large.
2009
2008 came and went and now it's year 2009. Somehow, I don't feel the spirit of 2009 as dark clouds of 2008 still hovers above. It had been a rough year for the world as well as for me. Sadly, there are no silver lining yet. My mood for 2009 was neither cheery nor gloomy just nonchalant.
The only thing that lifted me up was a nice gathering I had with some friends before New year. We had dinner in a club and later proceed for karaoke. I sang my heart out till I had sore throat for the next few days. The sore throat got worst and I got to see a doc where I was given 2 days MC for NYE and NYD. Well, shit happens, but life goes on.
Let's hope 2009 is better than 2008.
The only thing that lifted me up was a nice gathering I had with some friends before New year. We had dinner in a club and later proceed for karaoke. I sang my heart out till I had sore throat for the next few days. The sore throat got worst and I got to see a doc where I was given 2 days MC for NYE and NYD. Well, shit happens, but life goes on.
Let's hope 2009 is better than 2008.
21 December 2008
Free Community Church's X'mas Service
I was invited to attend a X'mas service cum buffet by my close friend yesterday evening. Though I am not a Christian, I decided to attend.
My friend told me that the church he is attending is an all inclusive Church. It's doors are open to gays, lesbians, transgenders, Bi, migrant workers, divorcees, etc. I was wondering what kind of Church it would be like? It used to be called Safe Heaven before being renamed to Free Community Church. I went with an open mind.
Reached the church late as I was held up with some last minute work. We picked up a friend who was from another Church and made our way to the church. By then, the service had started. We were ushered to our seats at the back. The Church is housed inside a warehouse building which is very near to Aljunied MRT. The Hall is on the 2nd floor. It is not a very big hall but it was seated with up to about 100 over people. Though small, there was a small platform at the front which could accommodate a live band and the organ was on the side. Two projectors hung overhead showing videos and lyrics to hymns on both ends of the hall. The high roof was adorned with rows of light as it shone down towards the platform during services. Some rooms were at the sides and pantry and wash rooms at the back. The hall was draped with curtains to block the lights from outside.
The event had choir singing, communion, etc. Most noticeable was a play written by a church member which told the story of 2 women during the time when Jesus was born. How they were madly in love and their struggles to be accepted. It was well acted by the lead actresses. Next, Gary delivered a rather interesting sermon on 4 words; "God is with you". The old pastor ended the service with a blessing. All in all the service was pretty much like services I attended eons ago; only that the majority of the congregation was gay.
A nice Gmen looking guy did caught my attention. Haha..too bad I did not get to chat with him. Anyway, we later proceed to the buffet and it was serving western food. There was pasta, German Wieners, salad, onion rings and chips, etc. Food was ok. It is nice to have some western food.
Met and chatted with a couple of guys whom I knew and some whom I knew but had never had the opportunity to get to know. Overall, the experience was nice and it think it is good that one can go and attend a Church service who don't condemn you for being gay and gays don't have to try to behave like straight just to attend a Church service.
Generally, the congregation consist of mostly young people between 20s - 30s. Some very geeky, some you can tell it is very obviously gay, some butch lesbians who dressed like men, some straight looking couples, a few GWM, a few chubs, 1 Gmen, a few gym bods types and lots of very hard working volunteers that put in time and effort to make the event a success.
It would be nice to go to the Church if I were Christian. Even though I am not, I dun mind going there to listen to the service and sing, although I do get uncomfortable somewhat when they were saying grace and singing praises because I simply don't have faith in a religion which is so misinterpreted. But I can see that many there does have the faith.
For those of you reading this blog, why not drop by FCC for it's services if you have nothing to do?
Free Community Church @ http://www.freecomchurch.org/
My friend told me that the church he is attending is an all inclusive Church. It's doors are open to gays, lesbians, transgenders, Bi, migrant workers, divorcees, etc. I was wondering what kind of Church it would be like? It used to be called Safe Heaven before being renamed to Free Community Church. I went with an open mind.
Reached the church late as I was held up with some last minute work. We picked up a friend who was from another Church and made our way to the church. By then, the service had started. We were ushered to our seats at the back. The Church is housed inside a warehouse building which is very near to Aljunied MRT. The Hall is on the 2nd floor. It is not a very big hall but it was seated with up to about 100 over people. Though small, there was a small platform at the front which could accommodate a live band and the organ was on the side. Two projectors hung overhead showing videos and lyrics to hymns on both ends of the hall. The high roof was adorned with rows of light as it shone down towards the platform during services. Some rooms were at the sides and pantry and wash rooms at the back. The hall was draped with curtains to block the lights from outside.
The event had choir singing, communion, etc. Most noticeable was a play written by a church member which told the story of 2 women during the time when Jesus was born. How they were madly in love and their struggles to be accepted. It was well acted by the lead actresses. Next, Gary delivered a rather interesting sermon on 4 words; "God is with you". The old pastor ended the service with a blessing. All in all the service was pretty much like services I attended eons ago; only that the majority of the congregation was gay.
A nice Gmen looking guy did caught my attention. Haha..too bad I did not get to chat with him. Anyway, we later proceed to the buffet and it was serving western food. There was pasta, German Wieners, salad, onion rings and chips, etc. Food was ok. It is nice to have some western food.
Met and chatted with a couple of guys whom I knew and some whom I knew but had never had the opportunity to get to know. Overall, the experience was nice and it think it is good that one can go and attend a Church service who don't condemn you for being gay and gays don't have to try to behave like straight just to attend a Church service.
Generally, the congregation consist of mostly young people between 20s - 30s. Some very geeky, some you can tell it is very obviously gay, some butch lesbians who dressed like men, some straight looking couples, a few GWM, a few chubs, 1 Gmen, a few gym bods types and lots of very hard working volunteers that put in time and effort to make the event a success.
It would be nice to go to the Church if I were Christian. Even though I am not, I dun mind going there to listen to the service and sing, although I do get uncomfortable somewhat when they were saying grace and singing praises because I simply don't have faith in a religion which is so misinterpreted. But I can see that many there does have the faith.
For those of you reading this blog, why not drop by FCC for it's services if you have nothing to do?
Free Community Church @ http://www.freecomchurch.org/
09 December 2008
Show Buffs
I watched many shows...actually obscenely many shows. I started since a very young age as I live near an old amusement park with 3 cinemas. I remember clocking about a 100+ shows in a year when I was just 15 or 16 years old. The no. was most probably bump up due to double-bill for some Chinese shows. After school, I would go down to catch a show from Paramount, Grand, Pacific, Hoover, Ruby, Rex, Odean, etc. Cinemas.
Besides movies shows, I am also a TV & Video buffs.
I've watched shows in Mandarin, English, Korean, Cantonese, Japanese, Tamil/Hindi, Malay, Tagalog & Thai.
Movies - Action, Drama, Thriller, Horror & Comedy etc.
TV programs like;
Documentaries - Science, Biography, Crime, Technology, etc.
Talk Shows - Entertainment Tonite, 康熙來了, etc.
Game Shows - 我猜,我猜,我猜猜猜, 綜藝大哥大, etc.
Foodie Shows - Hell's Kitchen, Ramsey's Kitchen, 搶灘大行動, Super Chef, etc.
Anime - Naruto, Bleach, Gibili Studio, etc...
Serials - 大長今, 醫道, 敘務二課, 金太郎, 嘛辣鮮師,極道鮮師,射鵰,神鵰,etc...
Drama - X-Files,Ghost whisperer, Medium, Eli Stone, etc...
Not forgetting Porn. (lots)
Practically everything under the sun/moon.
Maybe I should be a show critic. :)
Besides movies shows, I am also a TV & Video buffs.
I've watched shows in Mandarin, English, Korean, Cantonese, Japanese, Tamil/Hindi, Malay, Tagalog & Thai.
Movies - Action, Drama, Thriller, Horror & Comedy etc.
TV programs like;
Documentaries - Science, Biography, Crime, Technology, etc.
Talk Shows - Entertainment Tonite, 康熙來了, etc.
Game Shows - 我猜,我猜,我猜猜猜, 綜藝大哥大, etc.
Foodie Shows - Hell's Kitchen, Ramsey's Kitchen, 搶灘大行動, Super Chef, etc.
Anime - Naruto, Bleach, Gibili Studio, etc...
Serials - 大長今, 醫道, 敘務二課, 金太郎, 嘛辣鮮師,極道鮮師,射鵰,神鵰,etc...
Drama - X-Files,Ghost whisperer, Medium, Eli Stone, etc...
Not forgetting Porn. (lots)
Practically everything under the sun/moon.
Maybe I should be a show critic. :)
18 November 2008
Game Crazy
Recently got my hands on Okami, an old game from PS2 but pretty new in Wii. I have been wanting to play Okami for a long time when it was on PS2 but since my PS2 DVD was not reading those new disc well, I did not get to play it until now.
It was worth the wait. The game played well and there are lots of new moves to learn. Instead of just finger actions as in PS2, there was lots of arms swinging and movements for Wii.
I really love the game.
Incidentally, I was also playing with 'World of Goo' prior to playing Okami. Okami got me hooked while 'World of Goo' got my partner hooked. When I in the loo or ideling, I may also be playing "Loco Poco 2" on my PSP.
Haha, I must really be crazy. Who would have heard about an uncle playing console games until he dun sleep? I wonder how may uncles out there are as crazy as me if not carzier?
Did try to post on BW if there are any fellow Wii players but the respond was dismayal. Well, I guess will just have to wait to see if there are any other Wii fans out there who love playing console games.
It was worth the wait. The game played well and there are lots of new moves to learn. Instead of just finger actions as in PS2, there was lots of arms swinging and movements for Wii.
I really love the game.
Incidentally, I was also playing with 'World of Goo' prior to playing Okami. Okami got me hooked while 'World of Goo' got my partner hooked. When I in the loo or ideling, I may also be playing "Loco Poco 2" on my PSP.
Haha, I must really be crazy. Who would have heard about an uncle playing console games until he dun sleep? I wonder how may uncles out there are as crazy as me if not carzier?
Did try to post on BW if there are any fellow Wii players but the respond was dismayal. Well, I guess will just have to wait to see if there are any other Wii fans out there who love playing console games.
31 October 2008
Dying Alone
Another news of a lady whose decomposed body was found weeks after she went missing. It is quiet sad that cases like these happens once in awhile. It was reported that she kept to herself and lived alone and had few friends and work independently.
I remembered an incident I once had few years back while I was home alone. While in the toilet doing my no. 1, I suddenly felt nauseating and that I am going to black-out. I quickly cleaned up and rush back to my room to lie on my bed before I pass out. Before I hit my bed, a thought rushed to me to leave the door open, just in case if I were to be unconscious, my tenant/partner can see that I am at home.
After I recovered from my near black-out, I called my then ex-partner and we both went to the emergency unit of the nearby hospital. I was later diagnosed with kidney/gall stones which was the caused to the cold sweat and fainting spell.
It was excruciating to suffer from stones but I eventually recovered. The incident did made me realised that it is good to have someone around, be it a partner or tenant or friend. And in case of emergencies or something serious, one should consider a backup plan where someone can be the custodian to manage your assets, etc. should the need arises.
I remembered an incident I once had few years back while I was home alone. While in the toilet doing my no. 1, I suddenly felt nauseating and that I am going to black-out. I quickly cleaned up and rush back to my room to lie on my bed before I pass out. Before I hit my bed, a thought rushed to me to leave the door open, just in case if I were to be unconscious, my tenant/partner can see that I am at home.
After I recovered from my near black-out, I called my then ex-partner and we both went to the emergency unit of the nearby hospital. I was later diagnosed with kidney/gall stones which was the caused to the cold sweat and fainting spell.
It was excruciating to suffer from stones but I eventually recovered. The incident did made me realised that it is good to have someone around, be it a partner or tenant or friend. And in case of emergencies or something serious, one should consider a backup plan where someone can be the custodian to manage your assets, etc. should the need arises.
27 October 2008
Chatroom Saga
The saga of a complained made by a member about a certain Chatroom admin has come to an end. Anonymous supporters of Chinese sausage and 2 members slugging it out in a no holds bar exchanged of words caused quiet a stir in BW and it took 5 pages before our oral specialist closed the thread.
As the Chinese sausage incident came to a close, a bias idiot who is now in Germany, armed with hearsay and a half fucked side of the story decided to start another indignation case where a JB cam voyeur who was kicked by me couple of months ago on IRC. Sadly he is neither the person involved nor does he know the whole story. Do I feel guilty about kicking him, hell no. If I see him on IRC, would I kick him again? Hell yes. Just asked him what he did on #gam and #sgboy.
Oh, I have no doubt that I too, am guilty of kicking ppl out of the chatroom. Will I lose sleep over what I did? No. Was I sore about not being an op? Maybe. But I was more sore that I was not regarded as a friend more than anything else. After that incident, I ex-communicated myself. Anyway, life goes on.
Having dinner tonite with 2 BW members, I came to realise that there was a gathering in Pasir Ris through one of the member. Since he was having dinner with me, he was not able to attend the dinner in Pasir Ris. The BW member told me that; "After what happened, do you think you will still be invited?". Yah hor. Anyway, since it has come to this state, just accept it and move on and dun look back.
Hahaha..It was fun while it lasted.
As the Chinese sausage incident came to a close, a bias idiot who is now in Germany, armed with hearsay and a half fucked side of the story decided to start another indignation case where a JB cam voyeur who was kicked by me couple of months ago on IRC. Sadly he is neither the person involved nor does he know the whole story. Do I feel guilty about kicking him, hell no. If I see him on IRC, would I kick him again? Hell yes. Just asked him what he did on #gam and #sgboy.
Oh, I have no doubt that I too, am guilty of kicking ppl out of the chatroom. Will I lose sleep over what I did? No. Was I sore about not being an op? Maybe. But I was more sore that I was not regarded as a friend more than anything else. After that incident, I ex-communicated myself. Anyway, life goes on.
Having dinner tonite with 2 BW members, I came to realise that there was a gathering in Pasir Ris through one of the member. Since he was having dinner with me, he was not able to attend the dinner in Pasir Ris. The BW member told me that; "After what happened, do you think you will still be invited?". Yah hor. Anyway, since it has come to this state, just accept it and move on and dun look back.
Hahaha..It was fun while it lasted.
23 October 2008
Cyberbullying
Someone complained on BW 2 days ago, that he was kicked out and banned by the Op by making a remark that the chatter was a 'weirdo'. The op who is a close friend of the member in the chatroom took it upon himself to kick and ban the new guy who made a casual remark in the main chatroom. This complain eventually escalated to an all out exchange of words.
I posted my SOP and told that guy to take it easy as the chatroom is not the property of BW. As the exchange of words continue. The 'owner of the chatroom' tries to divert attention by bringing up an earlier incident about a 'notorious person who was kicking ppl too. It was so bluddy lame.
Personally, I think the 'owner of the chatroom' took sides and was bias. As much as he tries to justify his actions, it only made it worst by not admitting his mistake.
When Lungker move the topic to Flamming Room and Closed the discussion. I felt that since it is already in the flamming room, so let there be flames.
It was later that that 'owner of the chatroom' wrote about "obviously you are still angry' that got me going. Bluddy hell, was trying to put things aside and then kenna 'suan'. Well, for once, he deserved what he is getting.
Suddenly, a member broke his silence and wrote about being affected by such behaviour in that chatroom. I wonder who he was referring to when he wrote; "Some claim enlightenment in their blogs, but yet their behaviour is anything but." Hehe...I think I know who.
Anyway, I have to admit that I was guilty in the teasing, name calling, etc. part in chatroom but I only do that to ppl I know and it was done as a joke. Personally, talking normally is soooo boring. "Why so Serious?" (Joker to Batman).
So I know where that 'chatter' is coming at when he jest that "we had sex, etc." But apparently, the newbie don't get the joke which started the whole 'incident'.
When I went into the Chatroom later as a guest, 'the owner of the chatroom' somehow realised and left, but not before mentioning 'the moderator maybe spying'. Oh please, spying? Spy what? What is there to spy?
The other person in the 'storm' was actually badly affected by the incident. He keeps apologising to those he thinks he might have offended. It seems, he couldn't get over the fact that he had indirectly caused an 'incident'. No amount of words could pacify him.
Someone mentioned that 'This Topic is the most interesting one in months since "quitting bw"' and I couldn't agree with it more. I am so gonna sit back and watch the firework with my packet of popcorns.
I posted my SOP and told that guy to take it easy as the chatroom is not the property of BW. As the exchange of words continue. The 'owner of the chatroom' tries to divert attention by bringing up an earlier incident about a 'notorious person who was kicking ppl too. It was so bluddy lame.
Personally, I think the 'owner of the chatroom' took sides and was bias. As much as he tries to justify his actions, it only made it worst by not admitting his mistake.
When Lungker move the topic to Flamming Room and Closed the discussion. I felt that since it is already in the flamming room, so let there be flames.
It was later that that 'owner of the chatroom' wrote about "obviously you are still angry' that got me going. Bluddy hell, was trying to put things aside and then kenna 'suan'. Well, for once, he deserved what he is getting.
Suddenly, a member broke his silence and wrote about being affected by such behaviour in that chatroom. I wonder who he was referring to when he wrote; "Some claim enlightenment in their blogs, but yet their behaviour is anything but." Hehe...I think I know who.
Anyway, I have to admit that I was guilty in the teasing, name calling, etc. part in chatroom but I only do that to ppl I know and it was done as a joke. Personally, talking normally is soooo boring. "Why so Serious?" (Joker to Batman).
So I know where that 'chatter' is coming at when he jest that "we had sex, etc." But apparently, the newbie don't get the joke which started the whole 'incident'.
When I went into the Chatroom later as a guest, 'the owner of the chatroom' somehow realised and left, but not before mentioning 'the moderator maybe spying'. Oh please, spying? Spy what? What is there to spy?
The other person in the 'storm' was actually badly affected by the incident. He keeps apologising to those he thinks he might have offended. It seems, he couldn't get over the fact that he had indirectly caused an 'incident'. No amount of words could pacify him.
Someone mentioned that 'This Topic is the most interesting one in months since "quitting bw"' and I couldn't agree with it more. I am so gonna sit back and watch the firework with my packet of popcorns.
03 October 2008
Getting Organised
I have always been a rather organised person, but as the years gone by, I have been slacking and have not been really organising my stuff at home. After incessant nagging by V, I decided to get a cupboard.
I have been to Ikea for like 3 times, but I have yet to settle on the kind of cupboard I wanted. Finally on my 4th visit, with the help of E, I managed to order the Besta dark brown cupboard with frosted glass panel. That actually set me back about 600+ with the addition of some paper boxes.
Well, after 2 days' wait, the cupboard arrived today. It was quickly assembled by the Ikea delivery cum assembly men. After they left, I spent the next few back breaking, sweat dripping hours tidying all my books, computer components, beddings, etc. With the help from V, things managed to get packed and organised rather smoothly. I shifted through my stuff and threw out many thing which I dun need or were old, etc.
After the major cleanup, I reclaimed much of my hall from all the previous clutter. I am so happy as my place looks much neater now.
I have been to Ikea for like 3 times, but I have yet to settle on the kind of cupboard I wanted. Finally on my 4th visit, with the help of E, I managed to order the Besta dark brown cupboard with frosted glass panel. That actually set me back about 600+ with the addition of some paper boxes.
Well, after 2 days' wait, the cupboard arrived today. It was quickly assembled by the Ikea delivery cum assembly men. After they left, I spent the next few back breaking, sweat dripping hours tidying all my books, computer components, beddings, etc. With the help from V, things managed to get packed and organised rather smoothly. I shifted through my stuff and threw out many thing which I dun need or were old, etc.
After the major cleanup, I reclaimed much of my hall from all the previous clutter. I am so happy as my place looks much neater now.
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