I was invited to attend a X'mas service cum buffet by my close friend yesterday evening. Though I am not a Christian, I decided to attend.
My friend told me that the church he is attending is an all inclusive Church. It's doors are open to gays, lesbians, transgenders, Bi, migrant workers, divorcees, etc. I was wondering what kind of Church it would be like? It used to be called Safe Heaven before being renamed to Free Community Church. I went with an open mind.
Reached the church late as I was held up with some last minute work. We picked up a friend who was from another Church and made our way to the church. By then, the service had started. We were ushered to our seats at the back. The Church is housed inside a warehouse building which is very near to Aljunied MRT. The Hall is on the 2nd floor. It is not a very big hall but it was seated with up to about 100 over people. Though small, there was a small platform at the front which could accommodate a live band and the organ was on the side. Two projectors hung overhead showing videos and lyrics to hymns on both ends of the hall. The high roof was adorned with rows of light as it shone down towards the platform during services. Some rooms were at the sides and pantry and wash rooms at the back. The hall was draped with curtains to block the lights from outside.
The event had choir singing, communion, etc. Most noticeable was a play written by a church member which told the story of 2 women during the time when Jesus was born. How they were madly in love and their struggles to be accepted. It was well acted by the lead actresses. Next, Gary delivered a rather interesting sermon on 4 words; "God is with you". The old pastor ended the service with a blessing. All in all the service was pretty much like services I attended eons ago; only that the majority of the congregation was gay.
A nice Gmen looking guy did caught my attention. Haha..too bad I did not get to chat with him. Anyway, we later proceed to the buffet and it was serving western food. There was pasta, German Wieners, salad, onion rings and chips, etc. Food was ok. It is nice to have some western food.
Met and chatted with a couple of guys whom I knew and some whom I knew but had never had the opportunity to get to know. Overall, the experience was nice and it think it is good that one can go and attend a Church service who don't condemn you for being gay and gays don't have to try to behave like straight just to attend a Church service.
Generally, the congregation consist of mostly young people between 20s - 30s. Some very geeky, some you can tell it is very obviously gay, some butch lesbians who dressed like men, some straight looking couples, a few GWM, a few chubs, 1 Gmen, a few gym bods types and lots of very hard working volunteers that put in time and effort to make the event a success.
It would be nice to go to the Church if I were Christian. Even though I am not, I dun mind going there to listen to the service and sing, although I do get uncomfortable somewhat when they were saying grace and singing praises because I simply don't have faith in a religion which is so misinterpreted. But I can see that many there does have the faith.
For those of you reading this blog, why not drop by FCC for it's services if you have nothing to do?
Free Community Church @ http://www.freecomchurch.org/
21 December 2008
09 December 2008
Show Buffs
I watched many shows...actually obscenely many shows. I started since a very young age as I live near an old amusement park with 3 cinemas. I remember clocking about a 100+ shows in a year when I was just 15 or 16 years old. The no. was most probably bump up due to double-bill for some Chinese shows. After school, I would go down to catch a show from Paramount, Grand, Pacific, Hoover, Ruby, Rex, Odean, etc. Cinemas.
Besides movies shows, I am also a TV & Video buffs.
I've watched shows in Mandarin, English, Korean, Cantonese, Japanese, Tamil/Hindi, Malay, Tagalog & Thai.
Movies - Action, Drama, Thriller, Horror & Comedy etc.
TV programs like;
Documentaries - Science, Biography, Crime, Technology, etc.
Talk Shows - Entertainment Tonite, 康熙來了, etc.
Game Shows - 我猜,我猜,我猜猜猜, 綜藝大哥大, etc.
Foodie Shows - Hell's Kitchen, Ramsey's Kitchen, 搶灘大行動, Super Chef, etc.
Anime - Naruto, Bleach, Gibili Studio, etc...
Serials - 大長今, 醫道, 敘務二課, 金太郎, 嘛辣鮮師,極道鮮師,射鵰,神鵰,etc...
Drama - X-Files,Ghost whisperer, Medium, Eli Stone, etc...
Not forgetting Porn. (lots)
Practically everything under the sun/moon.
Maybe I should be a show critic. :)
Besides movies shows, I am also a TV & Video buffs.
I've watched shows in Mandarin, English, Korean, Cantonese, Japanese, Tamil/Hindi, Malay, Tagalog & Thai.
Movies - Action, Drama, Thriller, Horror & Comedy etc.
TV programs like;
Documentaries - Science, Biography, Crime, Technology, etc.
Talk Shows - Entertainment Tonite, 康熙來了, etc.
Game Shows - 我猜,我猜,我猜猜猜, 綜藝大哥大, etc.
Foodie Shows - Hell's Kitchen, Ramsey's Kitchen, 搶灘大行動, Super Chef, etc.
Anime - Naruto, Bleach, Gibili Studio, etc...
Serials - 大長今, 醫道, 敘務二課, 金太郎, 嘛辣鮮師,極道鮮師,射鵰,神鵰,etc...
Drama - X-Files,Ghost whisperer, Medium, Eli Stone, etc...
Not forgetting Porn. (lots)
Practically everything under the sun/moon.
Maybe I should be a show critic. :)
18 November 2008
Game Crazy
Recently got my hands on Okami, an old game from PS2 but pretty new in Wii. I have been wanting to play Okami for a long time when it was on PS2 but since my PS2 DVD was not reading those new disc well, I did not get to play it until now.
It was worth the wait. The game played well and there are lots of new moves to learn. Instead of just finger actions as in PS2, there was lots of arms swinging and movements for Wii.
I really love the game.
Incidentally, I was also playing with 'World of Goo' prior to playing Okami. Okami got me hooked while 'World of Goo' got my partner hooked. When I in the loo or ideling, I may also be playing "Loco Poco 2" on my PSP.
Haha, I must really be crazy. Who would have heard about an uncle playing console games until he dun sleep? I wonder how may uncles out there are as crazy as me if not carzier?
Did try to post on BW if there are any fellow Wii players but the respond was dismayal. Well, I guess will just have to wait to see if there are any other Wii fans out there who love playing console games.
It was worth the wait. The game played well and there are lots of new moves to learn. Instead of just finger actions as in PS2, there was lots of arms swinging and movements for Wii.
I really love the game.
Incidentally, I was also playing with 'World of Goo' prior to playing Okami. Okami got me hooked while 'World of Goo' got my partner hooked. When I in the loo or ideling, I may also be playing "Loco Poco 2" on my PSP.
Haha, I must really be crazy. Who would have heard about an uncle playing console games until he dun sleep? I wonder how may uncles out there are as crazy as me if not carzier?
Did try to post on BW if there are any fellow Wii players but the respond was dismayal. Well, I guess will just have to wait to see if there are any other Wii fans out there who love playing console games.
31 October 2008
Dying Alone
Another news of a lady whose decomposed body was found weeks after she went missing. It is quiet sad that cases like these happens once in awhile. It was reported that she kept to herself and lived alone and had few friends and work independently.
I remembered an incident I once had few years back while I was home alone. While in the toilet doing my no. 1, I suddenly felt nauseating and that I am going to black-out. I quickly cleaned up and rush back to my room to lie on my bed before I pass out. Before I hit my bed, a thought rushed to me to leave the door open, just in case if I were to be unconscious, my tenant/partner can see that I am at home.
After I recovered from my near black-out, I called my then ex-partner and we both went to the emergency unit of the nearby hospital. I was later diagnosed with kidney/gall stones which was the caused to the cold sweat and fainting spell.
It was excruciating to suffer from stones but I eventually recovered. The incident did made me realised that it is good to have someone around, be it a partner or tenant or friend. And in case of emergencies or something serious, one should consider a backup plan where someone can be the custodian to manage your assets, etc. should the need arises.
I remembered an incident I once had few years back while I was home alone. While in the toilet doing my no. 1, I suddenly felt nauseating and that I am going to black-out. I quickly cleaned up and rush back to my room to lie on my bed before I pass out. Before I hit my bed, a thought rushed to me to leave the door open, just in case if I were to be unconscious, my tenant/partner can see that I am at home.
After I recovered from my near black-out, I called my then ex-partner and we both went to the emergency unit of the nearby hospital. I was later diagnosed with kidney/gall stones which was the caused to the cold sweat and fainting spell.
It was excruciating to suffer from stones but I eventually recovered. The incident did made me realised that it is good to have someone around, be it a partner or tenant or friend. And in case of emergencies or something serious, one should consider a backup plan where someone can be the custodian to manage your assets, etc. should the need arises.
27 October 2008
Chatroom Saga
The saga of a complained made by a member about a certain Chatroom admin has come to an end. Anonymous supporters of Chinese sausage and 2 members slugging it out in a no holds bar exchanged of words caused quiet a stir in BW and it took 5 pages before our oral specialist closed the thread.
As the Chinese sausage incident came to a close, a bias idiot who is now in Germany, armed with hearsay and a half fucked side of the story decided to start another indignation case where a JB cam voyeur who was kicked by me couple of months ago on IRC. Sadly he is neither the person involved nor does he know the whole story. Do I feel guilty about kicking him, hell no. If I see him on IRC, would I kick him again? Hell yes. Just asked him what he did on #gam and #sgboy.
Oh, I have no doubt that I too, am guilty of kicking ppl out of the chatroom. Will I lose sleep over what I did? No. Was I sore about not being an op? Maybe. But I was more sore that I was not regarded as a friend more than anything else. After that incident, I ex-communicated myself. Anyway, life goes on.
Having dinner tonite with 2 BW members, I came to realise that there was a gathering in Pasir Ris through one of the member. Since he was having dinner with me, he was not able to attend the dinner in Pasir Ris. The BW member told me that; "After what happened, do you think you will still be invited?". Yah hor. Anyway, since it has come to this state, just accept it and move on and dun look back.
Hahaha..It was fun while it lasted.
As the Chinese sausage incident came to a close, a bias idiot who is now in Germany, armed with hearsay and a half fucked side of the story decided to start another indignation case where a JB cam voyeur who was kicked by me couple of months ago on IRC. Sadly he is neither the person involved nor does he know the whole story. Do I feel guilty about kicking him, hell no. If I see him on IRC, would I kick him again? Hell yes. Just asked him what he did on #gam and #sgboy.
Oh, I have no doubt that I too, am guilty of kicking ppl out of the chatroom. Will I lose sleep over what I did? No. Was I sore about not being an op? Maybe. But I was more sore that I was not regarded as a friend more than anything else. After that incident, I ex-communicated myself. Anyway, life goes on.
Having dinner tonite with 2 BW members, I came to realise that there was a gathering in Pasir Ris through one of the member. Since he was having dinner with me, he was not able to attend the dinner in Pasir Ris. The BW member told me that; "After what happened, do you think you will still be invited?". Yah hor. Anyway, since it has come to this state, just accept it and move on and dun look back.
Hahaha..It was fun while it lasted.
23 October 2008
Cyberbullying
Someone complained on BW 2 days ago, that he was kicked out and banned by the Op by making a remark that the chatter was a 'weirdo'. The op who is a close friend of the member in the chatroom took it upon himself to kick and ban the new guy who made a casual remark in the main chatroom. This complain eventually escalated to an all out exchange of words.
I posted my SOP and told that guy to take it easy as the chatroom is not the property of BW. As the exchange of words continue. The 'owner of the chatroom' tries to divert attention by bringing up an earlier incident about a 'notorious person who was kicking ppl too. It was so bluddy lame.
Personally, I think the 'owner of the chatroom' took sides and was bias. As much as he tries to justify his actions, it only made it worst by not admitting his mistake.
When Lungker move the topic to Flamming Room and Closed the discussion. I felt that since it is already in the flamming room, so let there be flames.
It was later that that 'owner of the chatroom' wrote about "obviously you are still angry' that got me going. Bluddy hell, was trying to put things aside and then kenna 'suan'. Well, for once, he deserved what he is getting.
Suddenly, a member broke his silence and wrote about being affected by such behaviour in that chatroom. I wonder who he was referring to when he wrote; "Some claim enlightenment in their blogs, but yet their behaviour is anything but." Hehe...I think I know who.
Anyway, I have to admit that I was guilty in the teasing, name calling, etc. part in chatroom but I only do that to ppl I know and it was done as a joke. Personally, talking normally is soooo boring. "Why so Serious?" (Joker to Batman).
So I know where that 'chatter' is coming at when he jest that "we had sex, etc." But apparently, the newbie don't get the joke which started the whole 'incident'.
When I went into the Chatroom later as a guest, 'the owner of the chatroom' somehow realised and left, but not before mentioning 'the moderator maybe spying'. Oh please, spying? Spy what? What is there to spy?
The other person in the 'storm' was actually badly affected by the incident. He keeps apologising to those he thinks he might have offended. It seems, he couldn't get over the fact that he had indirectly caused an 'incident'. No amount of words could pacify him.
Someone mentioned that 'This Topic is the most interesting one in months since "quitting bw"' and I couldn't agree with it more. I am so gonna sit back and watch the firework with my packet of popcorns.
I posted my SOP and told that guy to take it easy as the chatroom is not the property of BW. As the exchange of words continue. The 'owner of the chatroom' tries to divert attention by bringing up an earlier incident about a 'notorious person who was kicking ppl too. It was so bluddy lame.
Personally, I think the 'owner of the chatroom' took sides and was bias. As much as he tries to justify his actions, it only made it worst by not admitting his mistake.
When Lungker move the topic to Flamming Room and Closed the discussion. I felt that since it is already in the flamming room, so let there be flames.
It was later that that 'owner of the chatroom' wrote about "obviously you are still angry' that got me going. Bluddy hell, was trying to put things aside and then kenna 'suan'. Well, for once, he deserved what he is getting.
Suddenly, a member broke his silence and wrote about being affected by such behaviour in that chatroom. I wonder who he was referring to when he wrote; "Some claim enlightenment in their blogs, but yet their behaviour is anything but." Hehe...I think I know who.
Anyway, I have to admit that I was guilty in the teasing, name calling, etc. part in chatroom but I only do that to ppl I know and it was done as a joke. Personally, talking normally is soooo boring. "Why so Serious?" (Joker to Batman).
So I know where that 'chatter' is coming at when he jest that "we had sex, etc." But apparently, the newbie don't get the joke which started the whole 'incident'.
When I went into the Chatroom later as a guest, 'the owner of the chatroom' somehow realised and left, but not before mentioning 'the moderator maybe spying'. Oh please, spying? Spy what? What is there to spy?
The other person in the 'storm' was actually badly affected by the incident. He keeps apologising to those he thinks he might have offended. It seems, he couldn't get over the fact that he had indirectly caused an 'incident'. No amount of words could pacify him.
Someone mentioned that 'This Topic is the most interesting one in months since "quitting bw"' and I couldn't agree with it more. I am so gonna sit back and watch the firework with my packet of popcorns.
03 October 2008
Getting Organised
I have always been a rather organised person, but as the years gone by, I have been slacking and have not been really organising my stuff at home. After incessant nagging by V, I decided to get a cupboard.
I have been to Ikea for like 3 times, but I have yet to settle on the kind of cupboard I wanted. Finally on my 4th visit, with the help of E, I managed to order the Besta dark brown cupboard with frosted glass panel. That actually set me back about 600+ with the addition of some paper boxes.
Well, after 2 days' wait, the cupboard arrived today. It was quickly assembled by the Ikea delivery cum assembly men. After they left, I spent the next few back breaking, sweat dripping hours tidying all my books, computer components, beddings, etc. With the help from V, things managed to get packed and organised rather smoothly. I shifted through my stuff and threw out many thing which I dun need or were old, etc.
After the major cleanup, I reclaimed much of my hall from all the previous clutter. I am so happy as my place looks much neater now.
I have been to Ikea for like 3 times, but I have yet to settle on the kind of cupboard I wanted. Finally on my 4th visit, with the help of E, I managed to order the Besta dark brown cupboard with frosted glass panel. That actually set me back about 600+ with the addition of some paper boxes.
Well, after 2 days' wait, the cupboard arrived today. It was quickly assembled by the Ikea delivery cum assembly men. After they left, I spent the next few back breaking, sweat dripping hours tidying all my books, computer components, beddings, etc. With the help from V, things managed to get packed and organised rather smoothly. I shifted through my stuff and threw out many thing which I dun need or were old, etc.
After the major cleanup, I reclaimed much of my hall from all the previous clutter. I am so happy as my place looks much neater now.
Songs that touches me
When I saw MM's post, memories came flooding back to my mind of an incident which happened in KL.
Met this guy during my trip to KL with BW members; who was a friend of my KL friend. As my KL friend was not free, he has as his friend to chauffer me around. As we were outside Club 39, he was showing off his car's high end sound system by playing a couple of songs. It was there where I first heard; Love Me by Collin Raye. I was moved by the lyrics and asked him who sang the song. He told me that he will make a copy and pass to me the next time we meet.
Next day, we met for dinner with my friend and he handed me 2 CDs with songs he compiled for me. It was really nice of him to do that.
I never get tired of listening to the song and it brought me to tears just listening to it because the song reminds me of my granny whom I loved dearly.
"if you get there before I do... ...... ...but between now and then, till I see you again, I'll be loving you, Love Me."
Another song which never fails to brings tears to me is 蕭煌奇-阿嬤的話
阿嬤你這嘛置叨位,......希望後世人,邧攔會凍來乎你疼,作你永遠的孫子, 擱叫你一聲阿嬤!
Surprisingly, after all these years, songs like these triggers me very easily. Hates it when I am not able to be in control.
Guess I still miss you Grandma.
Met this guy during my trip to KL with BW members; who was a friend of my KL friend. As my KL friend was not free, he has as his friend to chauffer me around. As we were outside Club 39, he was showing off his car's high end sound system by playing a couple of songs. It was there where I first heard; Love Me by Collin Raye. I was moved by the lyrics and asked him who sang the song. He told me that he will make a copy and pass to me the next time we meet.
Next day, we met for dinner with my friend and he handed me 2 CDs with songs he compiled for me. It was really nice of him to do that.
I never get tired of listening to the song and it brought me to tears just listening to it because the song reminds me of my granny whom I loved dearly.
"if you get there before I do... ...... ...but between now and then, till I see you again, I'll be loving you, Love Me."
Another song which never fails to brings tears to me is 蕭煌奇-阿嬤的話
阿嬤你這嘛置叨位,......希望後世人,邧攔會凍來乎你疼,作你永遠的孫子, 擱叫你一聲阿嬤!
Surprisingly, after all these years, songs like these triggers me very easily. Hates it when I am not able to be in control.
Guess I still miss you Grandma.
23 September 2008
46th Birthday Dinner
2008 is an interesting year. So much had happened in the world. The Earthquake with devastated China, the US financial crisis, China's Melamine milk scare, the Olympic, Singapore's first F1 race.
My career switch would certainly pale in comparison to the big event. In fact, if not for NFB and OB, I was not even thinking about celebrating my birthday. Personally, I prefer to have a simple birthday just going out with a few close friends and having dinner. My birthday dinner was organised a day early as I would be busy on Sunday.
Met Chat at TP central and waited for OB to pick us up to go to Turf City. Upon arriving, Aka & Exec, Stockydude, NFB, Stoner and CB has already started eating. Pete arrived much later. Dinner was sweaty but filling. Exec had made a delicious chocolate which I had never tasted. At my age, I better cut down on all the sweet stuff. Of course that does not include cute young thing.
After dinner, Stoner & Stockydude left. We adjourned to Bt Timah's McDonalds for coffee and met up with STB and Elmo. We were all teasing STB for having a "hicky". Curious CB kept wanting to know how STB feels when he was given a hicky. Anyway, CB was teased the whole nite by the guys for his interest in me. As for me, I was teasing STB and Elmo.
The night draw to a close at about 12 but I still have to trouble NFB to drive me to mom's place to get the new iron with father redeemed with his fuel points. It was really nice of NFB to drop me and waited for me and drove me back home.
It was rather unfortunate that BH got diarrohea, Nuss could not find the parking lot and went back home frustrated and LC had Bowling that nite.
Few days earlier, I was actually feeling pretty lousy but what more can anyone ask when u have friends around you to have nice dinner, chill, unwind, tease each other and simply just having fun.
Thanks guys....you make my day.
19 September 2008
Pre Birthday Dinner Outing
It's been awhile since I go out with boy for dinner. Since my birthday is coming up, he suggested that we go eat a good meal and followed by a show.
He has redeemed some food vouchers from Citibank for Seafood Forest @ Bugis Junction, as well as bought tickets for Mamma Mia! - The Movie from Shaw.
We met and headed for Seafood Forest. For Entre, he ordered Calamari and raw oysters while I ordered lobster bisque. For main course, I ordered Cray fish spaghetti and he ordered Salmon stake. My spaghetti tasted soggy and starchy and it was bland. IT was really bad, but I finshed it anyway as it was his treat for me.
I was glad that he brought tickets for Mamma Mia! instead of Wall-E, even though I would have enjoyed Wall-E. Mamma Mia! was great, and had made up for the bad dinner I had earlier. I left the cinema still humming to tunes by Abba; I have a dream.
When I came back, I had I missed a call on MSN from my Taiwanese friend. We chatted awhile and when I realised it, my boy was already fast asleep. I had forgotten to thank him for dinner and show. I leaned over and gave him a kiss and say my thanks.
He has redeemed some food vouchers from Citibank for Seafood Forest @ Bugis Junction, as well as bought tickets for Mamma Mia! - The Movie from Shaw.
We met and headed for Seafood Forest. For Entre, he ordered Calamari and raw oysters while I ordered lobster bisque. For main course, I ordered Cray fish spaghetti and he ordered Salmon stake. My spaghetti tasted soggy and starchy and it was bland. IT was really bad, but I finshed it anyway as it was his treat for me.
I was glad that he brought tickets for Mamma Mia! instead of Wall-E, even though I would have enjoyed Wall-E. Mamma Mia! was great, and had made up for the bad dinner I had earlier. I left the cinema still humming to tunes by Abba; I have a dream.
When I came back, I had I missed a call on MSN from my Taiwanese friend. We chatted awhile and when I realised it, my boy was already fast asleep. I had forgotten to thank him for dinner and show. I leaned over and gave him a kiss and say my thanks.
18 September 2008
Mamma Mia! - The Movie
I Have a Dream
This song is from the movie Mamma Mia! Which was a hit song from the Swedish group ABBA back in the 70s.
The movie Mamma Mia! was adapted from the Broadway musical of the same name. It has all the famous ABBA hit songs. I really enjoyed the show and the familiar tunes which I happily sings along until my partner asked me not to.
This song hits close to my heart of the path I am heading towards.
I have a dream
A song to sing
To help me cope
With anything
If you see the wonder
Of a fairy tale
You can take the future
Even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream
I have a dream
I have a dream
A fantasy
To help me through
Reality
And my destination
Makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness
Still another mile
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream
I have a dream
I'll cross the stream
I have a dream
I have a dream
A song to sing
To help me cope
With anything
If you see the wonder
Of a fairy tale
You can take the future
Even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream
I have a dream
I'll cross the stream
I have a dream
16 September 2008
Hitting Life's Reset Button
As I was sorting out some of the cut outs which I had lying around and found a Sunday Times April 13th article entitled "Hitting Life's Reset Button" by Ignatius Low. Reading it then and reading it now, it really set me thinking. Life earlier this year was comfortable and cosy with a good pay job and comparing with now, I am back to days of yonder; flash back year 2001.
This will be the third time I've pressed my reset button. 1st time was in 1990 when I decided to switched from Technical to Sales. 2nd was in 2001 when I came back from BKK. Now and most recently, my 3rd reset.
1990 was also the year where I decide to lead the life I want to live instead of living my life as someone I am not. I have learned to accept myself and wants to be happy instead of trying to please others while making myself miserable. It was also the year where I accepted my own orientation; after years of denial.
Year 2001 is a year where the whole world was going into recession. While the world goes into recession, I was going through mild depression. I was dis-interested to work and are vegging out at home. I eventually got out of my emotional rug and picked myself up.
Fast forward; 2008, I had left my job recently and had started a new path towards the unknown with my current project. The current economic situation is not looking good and it has giving me some what of a Déjà vu feeling. But what is different is I am not in depression but are very much aware of what I am getting myself into and the tough road ahead.
I am a fighter / survivor and I will enventually overcome and be successful. You can count on that.
This will be the third time I've pressed my reset button. 1st time was in 1990 when I decided to switched from Technical to Sales. 2nd was in 2001 when I came back from BKK. Now and most recently, my 3rd reset.
1990 was also the year where I decide to lead the life I want to live instead of living my life as someone I am not. I have learned to accept myself and wants to be happy instead of trying to please others while making myself miserable. It was also the year where I accepted my own orientation; after years of denial.
Year 2001 is a year where the whole world was going into recession. While the world goes into recession, I was going through mild depression. I was dis-interested to work and are vegging out at home. I eventually got out of my emotional rug and picked myself up.
Fast forward; 2008, I had left my job recently and had started a new path towards the unknown with my current project. The current economic situation is not looking good and it has giving me some what of a Déjà vu feeling. But what is different is I am not in depression but are very much aware of what I am getting myself into and the tough road ahead.
I am a fighter / survivor and I will enventually overcome and be successful. You can count on that.
15 September 2008
Who are your friends?
I have never gave much thoughts when I helped my friends with their problems. Although I regards my friends as friends, it had never occur to me to find out if I am being considered as their friend.
Recent events which happens to me made me realised who my friends really are. We can choose who our friends are, but you will know who your friends really are when things happens.
I am glad that I found out who my friends really are. It is really humbling.
Recent events which happens to me made me realised who my friends really are. We can choose who our friends are, but you will know who your friends really are when things happens.
I am glad that I found out who my friends really are. It is really humbling.
27 August 2008
Getting Back
I was stood up by a potential prospect last nite after waiting for him for more than half an hour. He did not reply my repeated calls and messages. Fuming mad and not wanting to put the matter to rest, I massaged him a last message and informed him that his name and no. will be sent to my company for his no show.
5 mins later, he called and apologised profusely after giving me some lame excuses for his no show. I told him off and dish out on him and even though he wants me to represent him for future deal, I told him to look elsewhere as the deal is off.
Too bad for him, he had messed with the wrong guy. My work is stressful enough and I certainly don't need prospect like him to make my day any worst. Many of my colleagues in my line of work had to put up with such people and to swallow the bitter pill.
I was glad I am able to get back at that prospect even though I lost the deal. Someone has to stand up to such prospect and they had to be told off for playing people out. I am glad it was me.
5 mins later, he called and apologised profusely after giving me some lame excuses for his no show. I told him off and dish out on him and even though he wants me to represent him for future deal, I told him to look elsewhere as the deal is off.
Too bad for him, he had messed with the wrong guy. My work is stressful enough and I certainly don't need prospect like him to make my day any worst. Many of my colleagues in my line of work had to put up with such people and to swallow the bitter pill.
I was glad I am able to get back at that prospect even though I lost the deal. Someone has to stand up to such prospect and they had to be told off for playing people out. I am glad it was me.
25 August 2008
Touched to tears
I met up with a long time friend and his wife yesterday after he knew that I had ventured out on my new job.
We had a long discussion about how we can work on his project. The discussion went smoothly and as we were leaving, something he said caught me off guard and I found myself touched to tears and was trying hard to fight back tears from my eyes in front of him and his wife.
He told me that he remembered what I said to him back in 1993 when he was starting out in his business; I had told him that had he needed my help in his new venture, I would be his first customer. And now, years later, he is saying that to me to show his support.
I was really touched and thankful for his support and friendship.
We had a long discussion about how we can work on his project. The discussion went smoothly and as we were leaving, something he said caught me off guard and I found myself touched to tears and was trying hard to fight back tears from my eyes in front of him and his wife.
He told me that he remembered what I said to him back in 1993 when he was starting out in his business; I had told him that had he needed my help in his new venture, I would be his first customer. And now, years later, he is saying that to me to show his support.
I was really touched and thankful for his support and friendship.
22 August 2008
Uncharted Waters
For years, I've always been a corporate guy. I've worked in small SME to big corporations; most of the time working for people. My current job has the size of a big corporation but yet, I am my own boss (entrepreneur). I came to realised that being a boss is really not easy, but I am glad that I am doing what I am doing now. I answers to no one except myself and I realised that I am threading in uncharted waters.
My job is made more tolerable as I am not alone. I will be graduating with my fellow course mates by next week and I realised that many of my course mates are ill prepared in their mental as well as technological skills. In this day and age, one really need to leverage on technology to help them get the latest information which would help them in their jobs.
I've come across fellow course mates whom are in it as an extra backup plan "后路". But the problem with them is that they still think like a worker and not like a boss.
I am glad that I am technologically apt and that I've met with very nice course mates whom welcomes me into their group. My tenant who is my friend plays a part in making my transition from worker to boss bearable. When I am in doubt, I know I can get the answers readily.
I am giving myself lots of opportunity to learn from the best and at the same time working hard to close deals. I am aiming to be the best there is. :)
My job is made more tolerable as I am not alone. I will be graduating with my fellow course mates by next week and I realised that many of my course mates are ill prepared in their mental as well as technological skills. In this day and age, one really need to leverage on technology to help them get the latest information which would help them in their jobs.
I've come across fellow course mates whom are in it as an extra backup plan "后路". But the problem with them is that they still think like a worker and not like a boss.
I am glad that I am technologically apt and that I've met with very nice course mates whom welcomes me into their group. My tenant who is my friend plays a part in making my transition from worker to boss bearable. When I am in doubt, I know I can get the answers readily.
I am giving myself lots of opportunity to learn from the best and at the same time working hard to close deals. I am aiming to be the best there is. :)
19 August 2008
Self Exile
After reading BW, I came to know that there was some war-of-words between 2 regular BW mahjong kaki in their respective blogs. When friends are too close and sees each others too often, some misunderstandings can happend and frienship lost. It seems that the 2 BWers had settled their differences (from their respective blogs).
Few months ago, I was de-op from IRC by the original starter of the BW IRC chatroom for anyhow kicking people out. He told me that; "Most people (in IRC) dun want to see u on IRC". I took the hint and exile myself from IRC after that.
It was later that I found out the word "Most people" is subjective. I wasn't as "unwelcome" as I was "told".
I was sore initially, because I regards him as a friend but was treated like an outsider. I also realised that as much as I can regard somone as a friend, it is not up to me if I am not considered as one.
Luckily for me, everything happens for a reason. After my exile from IRC, I was kept busy after I enrolled myself in a course which eventually led me to my new job.
Anyway, looking at the positive side of things, I was glad that that person de-op me in IRC, if not for him, I would still be parking myself on IRC and spent hours on ends chatting and glueing myself to my computer. Not that there is anything wrong with doing the above.
Nowadays, I am swamped with work and hardly even have time to chat online and everyday after I comes back from work, it's more work and of course moderating of BW forum.
Well, I am not trying to add fuel to fire, I just felt that everything happens for a reason.
While one showed up during one of the Mod's birthday karaoke gathering, the other was absent.
Self exile is a good thing. Instead of fighting over issues, it is non-confrontational and it allows both party to cool off. Although not much could be said about the posting in their respective blogs and in their case, 寫者無心, 看者有意 which led to their misunderstanding.
I hope my blog also dun be misconstuded to be another 寫者無心, 看者有意 incident.
Few months ago, I was de-op from IRC by the original starter of the BW IRC chatroom for anyhow kicking people out. He told me that; "Most people (in IRC) dun want to see u on IRC". I took the hint and exile myself from IRC after that.
It was later that I found out the word "Most people" is subjective. I wasn't as "unwelcome" as I was "told".
I was sore initially, because I regards him as a friend but was treated like an outsider. I also realised that as much as I can regard somone as a friend, it is not up to me if I am not considered as one.
Luckily for me, everything happens for a reason. After my exile from IRC, I was kept busy after I enrolled myself in a course which eventually led me to my new job.
Anyway, looking at the positive side of things, I was glad that that person de-op me in IRC, if not for him, I would still be parking myself on IRC and spent hours on ends chatting and glueing myself to my computer. Not that there is anything wrong with doing the above.
Nowadays, I am swamped with work and hardly even have time to chat online and everyday after I comes back from work, it's more work and of course moderating of BW forum.
Well, I am not trying to add fuel to fire, I just felt that everything happens for a reason.
While one showed up during one of the Mod's birthday karaoke gathering, the other was absent.
Self exile is a good thing. Instead of fighting over issues, it is non-confrontational and it allows both party to cool off. Although not much could be said about the posting in their respective blogs and in their case, 寫者無心, 看者有意 which led to their misunderstanding.
I hope my blog also dun be misconstuded to be another 寫者無心, 看者有意 incident.
08 March 2008
03 March 2008
Bangkok Love Story
Just finished watching Bangkok Love Story. A pretty sad show that depicts the love between 2 men which faith brought together but could not really be together even till the end.
The show basically is about a man who's love is so strong, he is willing to give up his wife and even when he is blind, he waits for his love to be released out of prison. But the twist at the end still breaks them up with his lover being shot dead.
I really love the theme song http://video.siamha.com/clip/283/
25 February 2008
BW to move
It has been decided by us Mods that BW will be moving. It is only when and how much.
BW the man has given the blessing. :)
BW the man has given the blessing. :)
24 February 2008
Organising of "BW Get Together Party"
I just announced the organising of BW's Get Together Party". Don't know if fellow BWers would be encouraged enough to come out of their closet to attend.
As this is a private party, so only registered BWers will be allowed in.
BearBear has agreed to contribute his share by donning women's cloth (aka Drag) to entertain fellow BWers. I am not sure how some of those who are paranoid will recieve it? Still it is better to have some entertainment than to have nothing except for the singing.
Andy@tokyo has agreed to sponsor "fleshlight" a masturbator for fellow BWers.
Hope the sponsor keeps coming in. :)
Have not decided on what to charge until I could firm up on the locaiton and others nitty gritty stuff.
As this is a private party, so only registered BWers will be allowed in.
BearBear has agreed to contribute his share by donning women's cloth (aka Drag) to entertain fellow BWers. I am not sure how some of those who are paranoid will recieve it? Still it is better to have some entertainment than to have nothing except for the singing.
Andy@tokyo has agreed to sponsor "fleshlight" a masturbator for fellow BWers.
Hope the sponsor keeps coming in. :)
Have not decided on what to charge until I could firm up on the locaiton and others nitty gritty stuff.
16 February 2008
BW Reinstated
After a few days of ding donging emails with Forumer.com's support, managed to get BW reinstated, but with conditions.
Was almost beginning to get withdrawal.
Things are back to it was. :)
Was almost beginning to get withdrawal.
Things are back to it was. :)
06 February 2008
BW Down
Much has happened yesterday which led me to post my blog.
The forum page which I was moderating was shut down suddenly yesterday.
Held an emergency meeting of the other moderators to discuss which course of action to take.
Anyway, there is no closure for us yet.
Got a reply from the forum earlier.
See what happens next.
The forum page which I was moderating was shut down suddenly yesterday.
Held an emergency meeting of the other moderators to discuss which course of action to take.
Anyway, there is no closure for us yet.
Got a reply from the forum earlier.
See what happens next.
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